The unbearable weight of time

She heard ao much about "time heals all wounds" that she started another collection: Sayings about time and grief.

For her and several other grieving mothers, time was a load that she had to carry with heavy burden.

From Wikipedia:
"Cruel and unusual punishment is a phrase describing punishment which is considered unacceptable due to the suffering, pain, or humiliation it inflicts on the person subjected to it.
There are generally tests that can serve as a guide to what cruel and unusual punishment is according to various legal textbooks in accordance with the law. These are the 1) frequency at which the punishment occurs in society, 2) overall acceptance in society, 3) severity (i.e., the punishment fits the crime), 4) if the punishment is arbitrary"

The longer she had to survive her son's death the heaviest the load of the time. Grieving the loss of a child to suicide fits all the requirements of cruel and unusual punishment.

Now she lives in parallel timelines. One that is stuck on his last breath, another one that drags her around pretending to be alive.She published her collection of sayings about time and grieving using Amazon creative space and all the proceeds from it go to a lady that supports family and friends of suicides: Karyl Chastain Beal.

Here is the webpage of her support group: https://www.pos-ffos.com/

If you are curious about her collection, you can buy it here:
https://www.amazon.com/dp/B00CLS5KWM/ref=cm_sw_r_cp_awdb_t1_37ktCbSFS1019

It was never about where it ends...

but how we get there.
That's what she thought on her first day of vacation.

Everyone seems to know that, based on all the motivational porn that circulates the net.

But no one is willing to take the plunge. The only certainty we have in life, since the day we are born, that one day we will die, and yet, it's the one thing that most of us refuse to get ready for.

Death should be our friend, she thought. She pushed her brain:"think, think!" The very idea of friendship makes as much sense as happiness, love, hate. They are not part of nature. They are abstract constructs that we use to fool ourselves and distract us on the way there.

We shouldn't care about death. Or care just as much as you care about life. Because life is what happens between birth and death.